I haven’t written in a while. My recent days have been spent trying to put one foot in front of the other without falling into a black hole. Every now and then I get a glimpse of the happy, carefree woman I used to be but then she fades away and I feel exhausted once again. I’m doing better today than I was yesterday and I hope to be even better tomorrow. My main source of happiness is my CC. She is my mini-me and keeps me on my toes. She’s talking a mile a minute and every day is filled with so many new words. I’m still amazed that she can understand what I’m telling her and lately her several-words-strung-together show me that she’s already talking back!
When I pick her up at daycare, she runs to me while calling, “mama, mama!” She honestly can’t get to me fast enough and some days she’s in tears because it took me an extra second to open the door. She hugs me so tight and clings to me with all her might. What she doesn’t know is that I need that from her as much as she needs it from me. Our evenings are a whirlwind of dinner, play, bath, and bedtime but there’s always time for talking and cuddling. I honestly can’t remember what my life was like before her. Yes, I remember the uninterrupted sleep. I remember sleeping past 4am. I remember having time to get to the gym. I remember my clothes not having food all over them. I remember my hair looking nice. Okay, I guess I do remember but I wouldn’t change a thing!
Thank you baby girl for adding so much sweetness to my life!!
