Fall is in the air!

We have gone from hot, humid, sweaty days to cold, chill inducing evenings so quickly this year that I have whiplash.  I’m not complaining though because I’ve been asking for it.  However last night while I was running, I realized I should have taken my son’s advice and borrowed his long sleeve under armour!  I love this time of year though.  All the yummy veggies, warm drinks, cuddling under blankets, watching the leaves change colors, the colorful sunsets, and the harvest moon.  I think if I could have one season all year long, it would be fall.  Warm 75 degree days and cool 55 degree evenings…bonfires, football games, sweatshirts, and sitting under the starry sky! 

Daily Lesson – SMILE!!

Sometimes I forget to do this.  I sit here at work, deep in thought, and I notice I’m not really smiling or frowning, just being.  And that’s no way to be.  By simply making a habit out of smiling, I remember funny moments or recall something good and boom, I feel better.  Well not just better, but happy. 

Daily Lesson - Eat Your Veggies!

We’ve all been told this since the day we could eat solids as a baby and yet still we don’t listen to our mothers.  Not only are they nutritious but eating more veggies will make you feel better.  They’re a natural mood enhancer.  So have a salad for lunch or add a little veggie puree into that casserole dish.  No one will know what hit them but everyone will be happier!

What a difference a month makes!

I did it!  I survived 30 days of boot camp classes and I’m going back for more!  I have officially signed up for 3x a week going forward.  I can’t say that I love it but I love the way I feel when I’m done.  I can feel myself getting stronger both physically and mentally with every workout and I’ve never needed it more. 

Before I started the boot camp I had started a running program.  So for many of the past 30 days, I took my class before dawn and then ran at lunch.  I’m proud to say that I’ve also finished the running program as well and am back to running 4 miles with ease.  I guess it’s time to start picking up the pace from 4.0!  Okay, I don’t run THAT slow!  I looked at my calendar and I’ve done 31 workouts in the last 30 days!  Woo-hoo!!  For the first time in a long time I’m doing something for myself every day and damn it feels good!

She did it!!

So I realize that I have complained, bitched, and moaned a lot about my daughter torturing me with her lack of sleep in the midnight hours so I figured it’s about time I tell you that she has slept through the night for the past 7 days in a row!  Yes, 7 days!!  That’s a whole week!!  Unfortunately I have been sick for the past 11 days so my sleep isn’t as peaceful as it should be but I can’t blame her for that.  My little pumpkin wumkin is still letting out a cry here and there, specifically at 4:10am when my alarm goes off, but if I’m patient for the whole 90 seconds it takes her to lie back down, she puts herself back to sleep.  We’re on a 7pm to 5:30am schedule on most days (today she was talking up a storm at 4am) but you know what?  I’ll take it!!  I won’t lie, on the weekends I wish she’d sleep a little later but I love that we’re out for our morning run while the rest of the world is still sleeping.  Not to mention that we have our entire toddler chasing day ahead of us!  I love her so much I could just eat her up and I do every chance I can!!

She’s not this little anymore but she’s still this cuddly! 

D Day

I originally wrote this on August 1st but it's taken a month to finally be able to post it. I'm still in denial but I'm trying to deal with it the best I can. 

Today is the first day of the rest of my life….I filed for divorce.  I filled out the paperwork, handed it to my attorney, and let the tears fall from my puffy eyes.  This is a decision that I’ve been contemplating since JC threatened divorce years ago and almost every day since.  I will never fully understand how things went so bad so quickly but I now understand what I need to do to be the best me.  This is possibly the most emotional day of my life and will pale in comparison to the day our divorce is granted.  We have a long road ahead of compromising and agreeing on the terms but the end is in sight.   This does not bring me pleasure, happiness, or relief.  All that I feel is anger, sadness, and I am utterly heartbroken.  But I know in my heart that this is the right decision for our family.   We are at a point of no return and this is the only way to leave with some dignity for the sake of ourselves and our children.  Our children, what a confusing statement.